'The government is pumping another 5 million into the Arts industry'
'The Arts is the only thing that is not declining or getting worser in the society at this point of time'

I'm quite happy that the Arts industry in Singapore is getting bigger and more noticed.

Anyway, got back our report books today. Sigh. I really have nothing to say. I wished i got to take part in Pierrot and the opening for the Arts festival but i was away in Japan. Not that i'm saying it the Japan trip sucked, but if only i was able to take part in them, only then will my report card or file look nicer. It hit me hard i must say, worst than normal school acad report books.

The only reason i can think of that why i'm more affected by this nyds report than school is because not only can this file be the start of my portfolio for my future, is it what i really want to do when i grow up. No bullshit working behind the desk for 7-8 hrs or more each day, a whole cycle that's so boring, wake up, go to work, come home, sleep. It's such a boring cycle i really don't know how some people can just live by it and not want more than just that 'stable' job.

I have so many commitments i wish i could just drop everythin except drums and nyds. I need to quickly complete piano and get rid of it, somehow get good grades this whole year. Actually, i don't think i have that many. Somehow, i just can't seem to have enough time for everything. It's so unfair that for my case, i need to put in so much more effort for good results than compared to others and that alone is eating all my time.

Then main reason why i really love nyds is because it's not only the place where people from different schools, backgrounds come together for the same purpose/motive. We all share the same passion : DRAMA. The feeling of being surrounded by people with the same passion, working and learning together to reach our ultimate goal -- to stand out amongst the crowd of Singaporeans when it comes to the Arts. Every Sat, we go to nyds and come out even more enriched than the previous day. Fencing, combat, acting, vocals, german, japanese, dancing etc, so much we learn. It's gonna be a year since i've joined nyds in May. So much i've learned, so much more to learn. It's so rare to get such an opportunity and i can't thank G and Yan more. It's a 费比墨说能形容的感觉。

The only barrier between me stepping up for nyds and being more involved in stuff is results. Why can't life be easier? Maybe only because challenges make people tougher and stronger each time. This year is gonna be so awesome for nyds, so many opportunities, so many projects. It's so frustrating that this year so happened to be the big year for me and it's all a case of extremely bad bad bad timing that gets me so frustrated just thinking about it. I want this badly, just that there's no way for me to physically show it because of that fat ass barrier in between.

Shit, i'm rattling so much. When there's nothing much for me to do on the com, listening to blg songs and typing really makes me think alot more than just normal narrations. I love my blog.

Why? I'll never find answers to all my questions
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